He’s just not into you January 5, 2009

1. Keeping you at a distance is one important sign that shows that he is not into you. Phone calls go unanswered, he does not call back until a day, or two later or hardly shows any sign of physical interaction. Flirting or conversation ends quickly on his part when you two are together, can reveal that the spark is not there.

2. Make excuses every time you want to hang out. Staying occupied with other ‘important’ matters and making you last on his list is another way of brushing you off. In addition, a date cancelled at the last minute is not a good sign of someone that enjoys your company.

3. Bring his friends along the majority of the time when you want one-on-one time with him is another way of telling he really does not want to get to know you at a certain level. This is true when dates is centered around what he and his friends enjoy doing the most and just tagging you along to different places.

4. Less eye contact with you while talking. Guys who are smitten by a girl absolutely love to look a girl in the eyes as it had his way of saying that he really likes her. However if his eyes shifts everywhere around and hardly on you, you are not getting his full attention. Gestures say everything about a person and if you are getting a negative reaction, his interests in you is hardly there.

5. Talks about other women a lot whenever he is around you. This can be painful to hear especially when you are attracted to a guy and all he talks about is other females, how attractive they are or if he has a crush on one. While it may seem perfectly normal to have crushes and find another person good-looking, it can be a blow to the heart if he never compliments you or says the same things as he does about other women.

Signs you should dump him by New year’s December 28, 2008

1. When you ask to speak to him about moving in, he schedules the talk for June.

2. Each time after sex, he grabs a private notebook from his bag and scribbles something in it, giggling.

3. His friends call him by the nickname of Cheaty McGee.

4. He loves to touch you and kiss you and will do so just as soon as he powers up and finishes killing these level-four zombies. Die, video zombies, die!

5. His ring tone is “Baby Got Back.”

6. The guy’s elaborate excuse for not spending the holidays together includes training for an Ironman competition.

7. Mr. Reality still entertains the idea that he could be a “stripper choreographer.”

8. He’s already written a scathing tell-all memoir of your relationship — and you’ve only been dating for two months.

9. He calls your mom “Mrs. Robinson” and stares at her way too intensely.

10. The big spender usually splurges and buys you awesome gifts, so it’d be a real shame to dump him before Christmas

http://www.cosmopolitan.com/sex-love/relationships/10-Signs-You-Should-Dump-Him-by-New-Years

Nostalgia December 24, 2008

I’m sitting here, going through my folders full of pictures. Beautiful memories! I wish I could go back one year. 

My eyes are filled with tears looking at these pictures. Each one of them represents a moment that I will forever cherish.

The pictures bring back those moments when we were one big happy family, having fun, enjoying each other, living for the moment. Now we are one broken, dysfunctional family. It is sad how we grew apart from each other. So much happened this past year. So much I would give anything o could to erase. My dear home that used to be the spot, doesn’t even feel like home anymore. I lost a brother (not literally), lost a sister. All those dear friends I used to have so much fun with, I barely see or hear from now. Everybody is busy living their lives. Some are too selfish to care about others.

We all went our separate ways. We all are living our lives. It probably won’t ever be the same anymore, but in my heart these memories will live forever.

These pictures will always be a symbol of the unforgettable we shared.

Love hurts December 10, 2008

So I’m having a bad day. My BF and I are fighting. I have not heard from him since the last enraged goodbye I said last night. I called him a jerk. That’s what I was feeling at the time, I still am.

Sometimes I feel like we are living a lie, guess this is the end of it.

The stupid fight was about a call that I received from a guy that I have history with and he doesn’t like. I could care less about the guy. He is being used anyway for my little revenge session. My boyfriend doesn’t know that, and I don’t plan on telling him either. He wanted to know the reason why the guy was calling me. We did not have a conversation, how should I know? He wanted me to call him back and ask him. I refused, I was not about to satisfy his ego. He went through my phone, heard a voicemail the guy left me a few weeks ago stating that he wanted to ask me a question. Of course he wanted to know what the  question was.

I didn’t feel like I had to tell him, not that I cared. The thing is, when he’s in such situation, and I ask questions about what so and so wanted or why so and so is always calling, he says that I am insecure, I’m acting crazy, I can’t be investigating him 24/7. I had access to his email, his phone, etc… He changed all the passwords. That’s his personal stuff, I can’t be looking at them. Okay, no choice, I let him do what he wanted. In the meantime my personal stuff is open. He says he doesn’t check, I don’t believe him; I don’t care. I have nothing to hide.

He wants me to trust his word. I’ve been trying to. I’ll admit sometimes I go crazy, but I’ve been trying to control myself lately. I don’t question much anymore. I don’t go looking for clues anymore. I just take it however it is. This is the effort that I’ve been putting in the relationship. It started getting better until last night.

I feel like he’s been expecting me to do everything, and him do nothing to better the relationship. Again I could be wrong. I put my self 100% into this relationship. I knew I wanted him, and I went for him. Now it feels like I made the wrong choice, and that it may be time for me to move on.

I just wish I wasn’t so weak, I could just get up and go and not look back. I don’t know if I can do this. I don’t know what to think or how to act. I don’t even know what’s right or wrong to do now. All I know is I don’t want to be the first to call, cause it’s always the case.

I would love to be stronger.

Dating experiences December 8, 2008

Why am I interested in the cheating subject?

Cheating is a subject dear to me, why? I’ve been cheated, I’ve been played, lied to, made fun of. You’ll probably say it happens to plenty of people. True! but not everyone deals with it the same way.

My second relationship (not really sure I could call it that, but anyway) lasted 2 weeks. I was on vacation, I was young. He was interested in me. It was flattering, so I went for it. It turned out that he had a girlfriend. Sadly when I came face to face with the girlfriend she said that he was badmouthing me. He told her that I was running after him, it was the other way around. He said that I wouldn’t stop calling him, lie! He made up all those lies about me. He wasn’t worth it. I got rid of the problem. Later on (years after) It was my turn to control the situation. We hooked up, but on my terms, and I dumped him as soon as I got tired. He never got over it. He always wanted more than what I planned to give. He now has a baby a girlfriend with 3 other kids that he is taking care of. I’m glad I got out when I did. It could’ve been me with his baby.

Then I got with my boyfriend. No one ever hurt me the way he has, but we’re still together. Sometimes I wonder how did we make it so far. I wonder will we last forever. We’ve been through so much. We’re still going through stuff.

Our story. We went to school together, started a relationship. I ended it after 6 months. My excuse: I did not know what I was doing at that time, plus I couldn’t handle hiding from my dad anymore. I was too young. So we parted, and became the best of friends. He made it impossible for me to forget about him even if I wanted to. Then, school ended, he went away, I was left alone. It did not bother me much. I would hear from him once in a blue moon, that was it. 3 years, we met again. He had his girlfriend, I was doing my own thing. He still had feelings for me. I started seeing him differently. I was attracted in a more mature way. We started talking seeing each other. When I felt like things were about to get serious, I asked about the girlfriend. He told me they had broken up (there was a whole story about it). No girlfriend, I could do whatever. We ended up in a real relationship.

Almost a year into the relationship, the ex subject came up. I’m very curious, I love to ask questions. I came to find out that the whole time we were talking, he was still with the ex. It pissed me off, he had lied to me. He swore he told me so, I just didn’t care. He never did, I’m not the type to do anything with anyone knowing they are in a relationship.

I was in too deep, I decided to move on, and let it go. After a year and half, I found out he’s been cheating for 2 months. “What goes around comes around” right?  The difference is that I did not know that he was cheating with me. I called it quit. I felt deceived, ridiculed. I tried very hard throughout the whole relationship, seemed that I was the only one to care.

Once I left him, he realized he had something good. He was basically on his knees, begging me to come back to him for a whole year. “That year was the best of my life” Everything I wanted I got, I did not have to ask for anything. I did not see it that way at that time. I did not care. I did everything in my power to push him away. He knew I was hanging out with other guys. I made it clear I didn’t want him back. I didn’t want anything from him, but for some reason I could not get rid of him completely. 

When a whole set of drama happened and he decided to move on, I started missing him. Missing having him around, laughing together and just doing fun stuff together. Last thing that happened was me seeing his picture online with someone else. It hurt me in my bones. My thoughts were:”there is no way I will have that b****( I know her) have what’s mine. I did what I did to get him back.

It’s been almost a year now. I wonder if I did the right thing by going after him. After everything that happened, I feel scarred for life. I have big trust issues. I don’t know if I’ll ever get rid of them, if so, how long it would be.

Al I know is I love him, he says he loves me too. We’re talking marriage, we’re making plans for the future together. The only things stopping me from being completely happy and carefree, are my trust issues, and the fear that it could happen again.

Did I make the right choice by getting back with him. If so, how do I get rid of my trust issues?

Why??? is my question to you guys. November 30, 2008

Why is it that, when a man can’t have a woman anymore, that’s when he gets too interested to the point of looking and sounding stupid? He works extra hard when it’s too late. He tries so hard that it stops being flattering, it becomes annoying. This amazes me to see how dumb and immature one can be.

Guys if you have a lady who is interested in you, don’t take it for granted. If you don’t want her, let her know from the get-go. Don’t give her hope. Don’t play with her feelings and emotions, because when she gets turned off, when she moves on, she’s gone for good. It doesn’t matter if you give her the earth, she won’t take it, she won’t come back(“Game or no game”). If she does, ask yourself why. It might be her turn to play you, or make you pay.

My advice to you:”Be careful what you do, watch how you treat her, know what you want before you regret it. It might come back to bite you in the ass“.